Middley

I feel middley. Not quite well but not quite sick. I think this is the most tedious part of having lupus. This is the part that makes people go "you're just a faker. buck up loser." I can do pretty much everything, not particularly fatigued, not really in pain but without the energy that marks my "good days." So I just feel like a blob on the couch, not feeling like I can indulge in the real "sick day" behavior but not feeling like doing anything else either. This is the part that drove me crazy pre-diagnosis. This just feels like I'm too lazy to do nothing. I would really beat myself up for day like these and I still feel sort of inclined to do so. I guess I need to take it in stride with the good days and the really bad days and just keep trying to eat enough nutrients, get my little mild exercise and keep doing things that make me happy.